Sorry.

This post is gonna be rather sentimental than the usual ones.

A couple of days ago, I had a tiny argument with somebody through text messages. What I could not understand is how can that person say something so unreasonable and didn't make sense to me. Maybe I had misinterpreted it the wrong way. I really don't know.

I did not show much anger in my reply (didn't use exclamation marks and caps), but more to questioning 'why' and 'how can'. Deep inside I was actually very uncomfortable and my perception towards that someone changed, for the worse.

Somehow or rather, I think that person could sense that I was not very pleased or either someone else told her because today that person texted me to apologize.

It's funny how a simple 'sorry' can make me feel so much better about the whole incident.

That person claimed that frustration was kicking in therefore leading to such a message.

Another example was worse. This certain someone rang me up out of the blue and semi-yelled at me about why did I spread such rumours. I was soooo confused I did not know what she was talking about and then I told that person to chill (when I was actually getting angry myself for getting yelled at for no reason). Few minutes later, that person texted and apologized profusely in a row for throwing a fit and explained what ticked that person off.

Again, when 'sorry' was mentioned, I myself felt better and calmed down.

I don't know if you guys get what I'm trying to say. I guess I'm the kind of person who will wait for a 'sorry' (and for that person to actually mean it) when I'm damn sure I did not do anything wrong.

Pastor used to preach saying 'Oh, do not wait for that person to say sorry then only forgive. Just forgive that person anyhow.'

I am trying my very best to pick up that attitude.

As for now, although sorry seems to be the hardest word, it definitely plays a great impact on forgiveness and mending a relationship.